Day 3 Fast

It amazes me how easy it is for me not to eat. I still have not had anything since Saturday. Just green tea with splenda and some coffee in the mornings. I felt like shit yesterday and I thought it was because I haven't eaten but when I woke up this morning I had a sore throat so now I know why I felt so horrible; I was getting sick =/ I need to go get antibiotics and some more diurex. Also, I got my period lastnight so I am getting a double dose of feel like crap.



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ABC Day 10

So today was better than I had thought it would be. Once you binge, it's really easy to just continue to do so and say fuck it. I struggled with that today but thank god, I didn't give in. ABC Day 10 was supposed to be a fast however, I did not fast today. I had about 300 to 350 cals which isn't that bad really. I was really scared to eat anything today because I was getting occasional stomache cramping from the laxatives I took lastnight and didn't want to make them any worse. I've really, really, REALLY been craving sushi the past 4 days but I am going to wait until I hit my 3rd GW and then treat myself  =)

I was sitting here today thinking about my progress so far and how far I have to go yet. But I realized that I am 6lbs away from the 160's, which is the something I haven't weighed in over 3 years!! So I am stoked! Then after that, the 150's?! I cannot frickin wait!! I can already tell a difference so I can only imagine how I will feel once Im down another 15lbs. Last June I was 191 lbs! So I am hoping by this June which is about 70 days from today, I will atleast be down into the 140's =) And then the 130s!! OMG I cant freaking wait!!!!! lol!!

ABC Day 7 & Minus 3 lbs!

Quick post before I head off to the gym. Weighed myself today and I've lost 3 more lbs!! Which brings my current weight to  177 =) Still high as hell but I am 2 lbs away from my 2nd GW! My BMI is also now down into the overweight range instead of obese. Progress, progress, progess! However, slow it may be =) Ate some Progressive soup which was 200 cals for the whole can but I only ate (not hate as i accidentially wrote earlier lol) the carrots and celery and some broth and gave the rest to my boyfriend lol. So 65 cals maybe? Idk. I just wanted enough to keep my from being light headed and possibly passing out at the gym. I am so scared of that! I'd be so freakin embarassed!!

Slow Progress

I slept in really late today. Woke up  at like 6:00 pm. I have my days and nights really screwed up but the longer I sleep, the less time I have to eat. I wish that I could fall asleep and wake up skinny, loose 60 lbs over night. I cant wait until I start seeing sime real results. I did loose 2.3 lbs (lol) since yesterday so I guess it's a start. My weight is now 183.5 but earler today it was 182.6 so apparently I put on .9 lb throughout the day. It's probably just water because thats all I've had today along with some spicy v8 and green tea, which I couldnt keep down anyways. I think it was the stevia I used to sweeten it. Right after I finished the cup, I got really nauseated and ended up throwing it right up. The only thing I've had today that had any caloric content was the v8 so I've probably had around 100 cals. I haven't worked out yet today nor did I workout yesterday. I was in alot of pain yesterday from working out the day before but today I feel much better, thank god!

I really hope that when I weigh myself tomorrow that I will have lost more. I want to set a time goal for myself but I also want to be realistic about it. If all goes well, I am hoping to loose atleast 15 lbs by the end of March, hopefully more.

I have to get all of my workout/ weightloss stuff together.


Here's the list of stuff I need to get ready.

Tony Gazelle Workout Machine
3 lb dumb bells
Yoga Mat
Pull Up Bar
P90X Dvd Set & portable dvd player
GNC Total Lean WaterEx diuretic pills
GNC Cellucor D4 Thermal Shock diet/energy pills
Multi Vitamin
Calcium Suppliment

Hell, I might even brab my xbox 360 kinect, an extra tv and rent Zumba or some other workout or dance game.

Pain, Hunger and Determination

Woah, it's been awhile! I completely forgot about this blog.

I did the P90X Ab Ripper workout for the first time in months yesterday and my whole torso and even my hips and legs hurt so bad!! Goes to show just how out of shape I am. Went to my Moms and picked up the Tony Gazelle machine, I can't recall what it's actually called. It's still sitting in my car though and I need help from my boyfriend (who is still sleeping) to bring it in. I am really excited to get on it today! That machine helped me loose ALOT of weight back in the day and I am hoping I will have the same results with it this time around.

I am not sure what else to say, for now. Maybe I will update on
my day later tonight. I really have been putting off weighing
myself because I know it is going to throw me into a depression.
But in order for me to gauge any results, I need to
know what I am working with.

Ugh.

Can anyone guess who this is?

SNOOKI!
She is looking remarkable compared to
what she used to look like.
To bad she just got pregnant. lol