Black & White Thinspo and ABC Update

Day 2 of the ABC and I am doing great so far. =)

Woke up super late (as always lol) around 1:30. I really need to get my schedule on a more normal time. *sighs* Had a large cup of coffee to help soothe hunger pains and I've been fine since then. The coffee mate I use has about 10 cals per teaspoon, coffee I believe is 0 cals so I've only had about 20 to 30 cals today so far =) My current weight is 181.6 so I have lost since yesterday. It was 181.2 this morning so I have gained water weight since waking up. In the last 3 days, I have only lost 4.2 lbs which is much slower progress than I want. I am used to loosing atleast 2 lbs a day, sometimes 3 and up to 5!! So this pound a day shit is frustrating to me. But, I have to remind myself that atleast I am loosing. Even if I loose only 1 lb a day, in 30 days that would mean that I would weigh 155 (by April 10th), down from my starting weight of 185. Sounds great to me but I still have a longgg way to go until I hit my UGW of 115.

UPDATE
12:21 am

INTAKE
Coffee - 30 cals
Sugar Free Gum - 5 cals
Lite Progresso - 120 cals
Cottage Doubles - 100 cals

Total - 255 cals

   Black & White Love 

Bordom and Thinspo

Didn't get much sleep. Feel asleep around 4:30ish and woke up 6am. Stayed up until about 7:30, feel back asleep until 9am, drank a huge cup of coffee and now I can't fall back to sleep lol. My boyfriends dad makes his coffee disgustingly strong, thick as syrup...enough to make your head spin so I had to put some sugar in my coffee, which sucks. I don't have any sweet & low and that stevia shit made me sick yesterday AND the day before that so I'm pretty done with that business.

Today is officially Day 1 of the ABC Diet for me. I'm super excited. Weighed myself when I first woke up this morning and only lost 0.4 lbs, which SUCKS! I want major changes! Fast changes. So hopefully the ABC Diet will do that for me. I am sooo sick of feeling so uncomfortable and concious of my body. I want my cute clothng to fit me again. Since I have gained so much weight back and my clothes don't fit me anymore, I have been hiding behind jeans and hoodies. I don't take any pride in my appearance and barely get ready anymore. With Summer right around the corner and the dreaded high tempatures and humidity, I sure as hell will not be able to hide behind baggy hoddies anymore. If I can't get down atleast 20 lbs by Summer, I'm in for a world of hurt.

If that's the case one word will sum up my Summer.... MISERABLE!!